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I don’t know who I am / Only who I used to be
A future just out of reach / Stuck somewhere in between
I don’t know how to feel / Hollowed out and empty
Like I’ve been left behind / It’s hard to breathe
Pieces falling through the cracks
Two steps forward but one step back
Waiting for my story to unfold
But haven’t written new chapters in far too long
A walking disaster
I’m falling apart
Keeping it together
Is the hardest part
I don’t know where I’m going / Only where I’ve been
Standing still / Find it hard to move my feet
I don’t know what is real / Fraying at the seams
Days and night move slow / Trapped in a dream
Lost along the beaten path
Trying to find the way back
Out running ghosts that still haunt me
Not stopping until I’m free
I want to make a noise
I want to scream and shout
But nothing is coming out
I want to make a mess
I want to leave a mark
But don’t know where to start
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Been down now
For so long now
Lost to the depths now
Time to sink or swim now
Step into the light
Leave the shadows behind
Head held high
It's your time to rise
It’s time to fight
Take back your life
Take your place in the world
You’ve still got a story left to be told
Lived like a ghost now
For too long now
Watched the world carry on
Stood on the sidelines for too long
It only takes one second
To watch it all slip away
This isn’t how it’s meant to be
But it’s how it is anyway
Beaten and broken down
But you put the pieces back together now
This is your stand
Time to live again
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It keeps me up at night
Feelings twisting inside
I’m not doing so good
I’d settle for fine
Am I all wrong?
Cause I feel wrong
It’s taking a toll
Feeling a loss of control
There’s something in me
Crawling beneath
Trying to breathe
I want to be free
Of something in me
Trying to scream
Like a caged beast
Trying to break free
Shake it off shake it off
A brave face for all
A bitter heart and broken mind
Are no defense at all
Shake it off shake it off
Pull yourself together
Hold on tight
This can’t go on forever
Do you ever feel a stranger to yourself?
Felt far away and watching someone else?
Can we ever know who we truly are?
Bleeding out from wounds that just won’t scar
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FUBAR [Explicit]
03:15
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I hear it clear
A promise made
Ringing hollow
Now the blood won’t disappear
How’d it get fucked up?
How’d we end up here?
A storm is coming
And I’m afraid I’ll be
The only one left standing
When all is said and done
Everyone around me keeps on falling
When the smoke clears
Will I be the only one?
I see it clear
The choices made
Seconding guessing
Now the guilt won’t disappear
How’d it get fucked up?
How did we end up here?
It’s hard to know
Which way to go
I thought I had this in control
The steps were set
It was all laid out
But I still let you down
The damage is done
And the danger remains
So I can’t walk away
You hope for the best
And prepare for the worst
But I can’t take another loss
I hear it clear
I see it clear
How’d it get fucked up?
How did we end up here?
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White picket fence dream with the fairy tale ending
But the happily ever after started to crumbling
I thought I was dreaming but it’s more like a nightmare
I don’t know how we got to here
This all fell apart
That’s not what I want
I tried to be good
But I wasn’t enough
Everywhere I look I see ghosts
The whispers of a forever I wanted the most
And when I close my eyes I see your face
But you’re gone when I open them up again
I play it over again; all that was said
Could haves and would haves running wild in my head
I thought I knew this story; I tried to play my part
But I had it all wrong the very start
I tried to be perfect
I couldn’t hit the mark
I tried to hold together
But it all fell apart
We tried
But it was never meant to be
Too good to be true
That’s what you were to me
Ran too many times
Found too many ways to hide
We have to face it this time
It’s time to say goodbye
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I understand the of darkest days
And drowning in pain
When you walk away
How nothing’s the same
The mask you wear
The scars you bear
The cracks that you repair
I know I’ve been there
I see you holding on
Step by step you carry on
Searching for a way to belong
Fragile but oh so strong
I see it behind those eyes
Where the shadows lie
There a monster hides
But it’s alright
CHORUS
Take my hand
And escape for a few hours
And we’ll forget about
All those demons of ours
I understand
More than you know
You’re not alone
Lead the way and I’ll follow
I understand this time
The pain and rage and hurt you feel inside
The world has not been kind
It’s all on your mind
You can’t connect
The world moved on
And you feel like a mess
But you haven’t found your footing yet
I could tell you a story
Compare our tragic pain
Show you we all have monsters
But it gets better one day
I want to take it all away
But this is something you have to face
And when you’ve figured it out
You know I’ll be about
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I turned to you
When it all goes wrong
I turned to you
When I can trust no one
A mind divided
Between deceit and truth
A heart divided
Over feelings for you
I just drive
I don’t have the time
To make sense of all the signs
I just drive
I ran to you
When it all goes wrong
I ran to you
When I could trust no one
In my head you’re the enemy
In my heart it cannot be
I can’t let you see
The broken pieces
I just drive
Away from here
Away from you
Away from everything I thought I knew
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They can strip it all away
They can try to make you lose your way
But they can never hold you back
They can never hold you down
Behind those eyes a wolf hides
Deep underneath a strength lies
Bent but never broken; won’t back down
The die is cast; there’s no turning back now
Been to hell and back again
And you’ll sacrifice more before this ends
They can try break you down
They can try to make you unwound
But they can never write your history for you
They can never pick the ending for you
It’s time to unleash what's inside
Bare your teeth and break the ties
The avenging angel ascends
Time for this to end
Walk through the dark towards the light
It’s time to rise
Don’t stop
Let the wolf out
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I’m here. I’m trying to make sense of it all
I’m here. I’m trying to weather the storm
I’m not sure of my place in it all
And the world seems upside down
But as long as I’ve got you
I’m home now
I’m here. I’m trying to carry on
I’m here. I’m trying to become more
You can let the world beat you down
Or you can get back up
You are the solid ground
Where I stand to turn it all around
In your love I found a home
You’re the only thing that makes sense at all
Holding on to hope; holding on to you
You’re the strength I’ve found
Coming home to you
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It’s been a long hard road to get here
A clean slate is right in front of me
Been hunting for years now
And I know myself finally
Been cast as the villain
And lived like a victim
But I won’t let that be the story written
You may have underestimated
But I’m feeling liberated
I have to do this now
If you know me
You know
That there’s no way I’ll back down
Whatever it takes
Gonna go my own way
I’ve got shadows to overturn
I’ll light a fire and watch it burn
I don’t know where I’m going
But I know I don’t want to go back
I can’t sit and let others call the shots
I’m gonna walk on my own path
I’m slaying demons
And banishing ghosts
Fighting now for what matters most
I will persevere
I’m not willing to lose anymore here
I’m done with liars and cheats
With double crossing and schemes
I won’t play this game
And be the one who walks away in pain
I’m done with being afraid
I won’t back down
I won’t give up
Head held high
I’m rising up
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I made a promise long ago
To protect you from the dangers of this world
So listen to me when I say
Everything is gonna be okay
I hoped I’d always save the day
I never wanted you to be afraid
But the road has led us here
The hope of tomorrow has disappeared
So I stand and watch you go away
Believe me, it’s better this way
And I know that where you go you take a part of me
And somewhere down the road we’ll meet
I made a promise to myself
To put you before anyone else
And now it breaks my heart in two
I never wanted any of this for you
Standing at a crossroads
I don’t want you to go
But you can’t stay
Different paths we have to take
Everything thing that I am
Everything thing that I do
Always and forever
It all comes back to you
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TheFifthSister Leicester, UK
TheFifthSister is a multi-instrumentalist and nerdy musician from Leicester, UK.
Nerdy rock songs
inspired by love, admiration, loneliness, mental health and being different. Songs about science fiction, superheroes, the supernatural, games, TV, movies, geek life and anything else that comes to their mind.
Inspired by a multitude of genres and artists, mixed together with nerdy references.
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TheFifthSister recommends:
King of geek rock.
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Fascination
by The Birthday Massacre
My favourite band. This album is incredible!
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