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Shattered Past

by TheFifthSister

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Blank Space (free) 04:18
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There’s a blank space Where I used to be Now I don't know me When I look at myself I feel like I’m someone else I don’t know who I see Out of place, out of time And I feel like a guest in my own life The “what ifs”, “shoulda beens” Lost somewhere between the past and empty dreams The world spins The world moves on Been gone for far too long I see the face. I remember the name. But nothing’s the same. I’m not the same There’s a blank space Where I used to be I don’t know me I feel like a guest in my own life Out of place; out time
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Echoes (free) 04:02
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I thought I saw you and the pain came rushing back I’m standing in another place and time; now I’m trapped I hear whispers; echoes of a sound Chasing shadows round and round The darkness here it pulls me down As the nightmare unfolds there’s nowhere left to run now When I close my eyes at night The horrors take on life These scars don’t fade; the pain it stays I lost a piece of me along the way Eyes watching me; dragging me beneath And it’s getting harder and harder to breathe A voice is calling from the shadows It’s taunting me to let go You want to see my brake Under the terror you gave Tried to hold me under But I keep my head above the water I’m here now; I’m never going back But I thought I saw you and the pain came rushing back
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My Escape (free) 03:52
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This feels like forever Waiting to feel like I'm not losing my mind Lose myself, if just for a moment Content to hide away from the light I don't wanna be alone with my own mind This doesn't feel right I'm afraid to sleep at night Unsure of what I might find when I close my eyes Another bad decision made Another bad mistake Just another one to take the pain away This is my escape This feels like forever Waiting for pieces to fit until I'm whole again I don't know who I am these days But just for one night maybe I can pretend Thinking hurts and memories run wild I just wanna find a way to hide Wide awake watching seconds tick by Another drink to pass the time A broken toy with all its fragile parts And with one wrong move I might just fall apart Can't hold it together; already to hard This is gonna end in tragedy before it even starts
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Hide (free) 03:52
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Don’t them see Don’t let them know Keep at arm's length Don’t let anybody close Put on a show Don't let anybody know That you're falling apart Struggling to play the part It's the perfect life Hide behind a smile to sell the lie Don’t let them Don’t let them See you screaming on the inside Don’t let them see Don’t let them know Keep up the pretense Don’t lose your hold Put on a show Don’t let anybody know You’re standing on a razor’s edge Trying not to fall Hide behind a perfect smile Hide This lie, it’s gonna tear you apart Thrown in at the deep end; still you play the part Don’t let it show That’s not how your story goes Just keep control
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One Day (free) 03:16
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Off course and torn apart Lost somewhere Alone in the dark I lost my way Seen a lot of bad days I’m trying to make a change One day at a time One foot in front of the other One step is alright One day at a time Sometimes it’s hard Not to fall back on old ways The bad days Still come I’m holding on I’m learning how to carry on I hear the demons calling Old friends Their footsteps falling In line with mine I’m not in the right frame of mind to fight But I won’t break this time Not today I won’t break Not today This promise I make
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Keep Hunting (free) 03:27
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Standing in this unfamiliar place Weary after harrowing days I saw her; an unexpected connection was made And she told me a tale Walking through the forest leaves Wind in the trees Took a moment to breathe That's when she said to me Don't give up You're gonna get there Don't be afraid Of the path you face Wherever it takes us Whatever it makes us Find what matters most Keep up the hunt Looking for love Looking for home Looking to belong We're all hunting for something of our own Sometimes you make a move Sometimes you stop and wait The end is only written By the choices that you make I recall the words I heard that day Over and over they play I recall the words I heard that day Don't be afraid
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Together (free) 03:39
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I want out from under this hell Somehow the story stopped being mine to tell I know what they think I know what they say No one is interested in the truth But I’ll prove myself for you Remember, whatever, we’re gonna be together I know sometimes I’m my own worst enemy But I’m not the villain of this piece Let them think what they think Let them say what they say As long as you know the truth All that matters here is you
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Damage Is Done (free) 02:58
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We’re living out a tragedy Consequences rippling all around me The damage is done, the danger remains And nothing around here is gonna be the same The shattered pieces can’t fit back together again But we’ll pretend it’s okay We’re living through another catastrophe Surviving but what will the cost be? Another test to face; another trial to brave How much more can I take? When’s this gonna end? We don’t get to go back again We’re living out a tragedy We’re living through another catastrophe
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Can't Turn Back (free) 04:12
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Time stood still but it passed so fast I’ve come to realise we don’t get to go back Woke from a bad dream to find it was real Running to catch up and struggling to deal We could torture ourselves by asking why How things could be different if we could turn back the time But the "what ifs" will kill you if you let it Time to turn the page or live to regret it We can’t erase what happened We wear the scars prominently We can't fix a past that's shattered We can’t turn back history All the bad won't erase the good memories But we can't live for yesterdays It’s taken some time to learn; some time of living with the hurt But now I see how things can never be The chance has passed Now we walk on different paths Though this chapter is closed you’re still apart of me But now is the time to move on with our stories

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Dedicated to the incredible Absentia Fam <3

This is an album inspired by the Sony/AXN/Amazon Prime series Absentia.
It was inspired by my own problems with mental health and experiences. I related to a lot of things in this show and these songs just poured out.

Be sure to stream season 1 & 2 now on Amazon Prime Video.

Thank you to the cast and crew and absolutely everyone involved with the making of Absentia for inspiring me. Your show is incredible to watch and I can't wait to make more art inspired it. So much love to you all. I'm hooked and can't wait to see what unfolds. I'll never look at an eye the same way again thanks to you though...


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This is a work of fan-art and has no professional connection to Absentia, AXN, Amazon Prime or Sony Pictures.


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released September 25, 2019

TheFifthSister would also like to thank The Doubleclicks, Sci-Fried, Kirby Krackle, The PDX Broadsides, Marc With A C and Misbehavin' Maidens for their relentless support and advice and for being people that I truly admire. You folks are the best and inspire my every day!

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All songs written, performed, engineered and mixed by TheFifthSister.


TheFifthSister recorded at Quad Studios, Leicester, UK.
www.quadstudios.co.uk

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TheFifthSister is a multi-instrumentalist and nerdy musician from Leicester, UK.

Nerdy rock songs inspired by love, admiration, loneliness, mental health and being different. Songs about science fiction, superheroes, the supernatural, games, TV, movies, geek life and anything else that comes to their mind.

Inspired by a multitude of genres and artists, mixed together with nerdy references. ... more

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